Whirlwind weekends & lonely weekdays!

(A picture from the Independence Day long weekend 2019 with a couple of close friends @Panchgani, Maharashtra)

This weekend went by in a blur. Friday night was the ritualistic drag race viewing party that continued as games night when other people joined in later. By the time it was 3 am, we had abandoned the board games and moved to 'Never have I ever' (a classic gay game especially when new boys are there). Talking about all the dirty things & drinking wine 😂. My ex-boyfriend was there too. Thankfully we parted ways in a cordial manner and there is nothing but friendly warmth between us. Though honestly, I think I was over him already long before I told him last year end before my trip to India. A tall, hot guy was also there. He is dating one of my crushes from a long time ago (whom I saw randomly last year at a Pride party and couldn't believe it was him). Anyway, thanks to the silly game, I found out that they are in an open relationship & the fact that la boyfriend hugged me a little too tightly at the end of the night, hmm *devilish grin* :D Maybe I'll get a chance to get much closer to him in near future ;)

खैर, the night ended at 5.30 am. Saturday the whole day - I slept, cleaned, gymmed & helped my neighbor with her moving out. At night, I stepped out for a birthday party, same group of people, kinda similar songs/gossip/discussions. More wine. Thankfully I wrapped up this one 3.30 am.  

Today was a birthday brunch hosted by some friends. Thankfully there were some new people to catch up with. Lot of Sangrias. A cute Delhi boy I met last November was there. He has bulked up quite well & looked extremely fit. Now I am kind of curious to see what's beneath ;)

I came back home by 8.30 pm tonight, had dinner and I suddenly felt a sense of loneliness engulfing me. Initially I thought it was a reaction to all the over-socializing that occurred during the weekend. But it burrowed deeper than that. Tomorrow onwards, a new week begins. Have many CVs to send out in the morning. Have to InMail connections on LinkedIn. Rework the CV entirely to explore a new sector of work. And most importantly, wait & hope for that elusive phone call/email by HR to revert positively for the applications I have already submitted. 

Phew!

But as Ghalib says -

ग़म अगरचे जाँ-गुसिल है, प कहाँ बचें कि दिल है ग़म-ए-इश्क़ गर न होता ग़म-ए-रोज़गार होता :)

(Though the pain of heartbreak is killing, we can't escape from the beating of the heart,
if I didn't have the troubles of love, then troubles of livelihood would have been there)

तो आज कल ग़म-ए-इश्क़ नहीं है but ग़म-ए-रोज़गार चल रहा है :)

Love!